for feeling like this process is so exhausting and like I do so much reflection over the course of the year that this is just so hard. For feeling like I don't even feel so bad about the things I have done that don't seem to fit into the realm of Halakhic thinking. For wanting things I don't have, for not accepting things as they are. For being too quick to judge others and lax with myself.

Anonymous

For being impatient, for not letting myself care for others regardless of what's happened in the past, for losing touch, with both myself, others, and G-d

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For still not being able to confront him to ask for his forgiveness for the ways in which I know I hurt him because I know in my heart of hearts that I still cannot forgive him for how badly and how deeply he hurt me. I do not think well of him, I do not want him in my life, and yet the guilt of our crumbled relationship, however sick it was, continues to weigh heavily on my mind. The fact that he is oblivious makes me feel even worse. It also makes me hate him even more. For this, I am sorry.

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